A Mess Is Worth Millions

Tarot of the Week

Two of Wands

The need to make a choice and move forward, rather than remaining stuck in indecision. Taking the first steps towards your goals, even if the path is not fully clear. 

Light Notes

Ready for some super honest, raw thoughts, updates, and shares?

My life is changing so rapidly—and with that comes joy, lessons, expansion. Everything is so diametrically opposite of what it was just a month ago. I went from full days with just me and my baby to now searching for any moment of silence just to think, just to breathe.

Which brings me to this newsletter.
Here’s what I’ve learned: being messy is worth millions.
Read on… but first—some other updates.

Kitchen Alchemy

(or in this edition—Wellness as a Workshop!)

Right now, I’m the healthiest, thinnest, fittest, strongest I’ve ever been—with the best skin, hair, nails, and overall radiance. And here’s why: months ago, I made my health not just a goal, but a project. A full-on, daily project. A forever project.

It became something I work on. Like a hobby. A job. A passion.
I fine-tune it every day—because every day is different and needs something different. That’s just the truth of being alive.

For the first time ever, I know what it feels like to feel 100%.

I can tell when I’ve slept deeply—my Oura Ring shows it. I’m excited to go to sleep at 8 PM (but I’m also up half the night still with a baby so there’s that).

I know when I’ve had the right amount of creatine, protein powder, electrolytes, water, herbal tea, supplements, minerals.
I can tell when I need more alkalinity. More anti-inflammatory support. More stillness. Or more movement.

Is it subjective? Yes.
Is it measurable? Yes in the way you learn how to feel it
But it’s real. It’s embodied.
Because this is practice. It’s art.

I feel what my body needs because I’ve been practicing daily for nearly 6 months. This kind of vitality—this level of health—is a new life.
When you feel this good, everything around you begins to shift too.

So why is a mess worth millions?

Because you don’t have time for it not to be.

You don’t have time for long, slow gaps between idea and execution.
I went back to work a month ago after being off for a while—and yes, I racked up debt. But I made a decision: I’m done with slow goals. I want speed. Momentum. Resolution.

So I looked at the full number I owed… and just decided I wanted it gone. Fast.

Within one day, I made over $2,500 selling things online.
I listed all my maternity clothes on Croissant. I put tech devices, old clothes, and anything I wasn’t using anymore on Poshmark and Mercari. I went through everything I own.

I looked at every single monthly recurring transaction and found a way to get the things I need cheaper or free.

And now I think I have enough ideas of ways to have the debt gone by the end of August and I’ve cut my monthly ongoing expenses in half.

 Which leads me to my real thought this week:
There’s power in a single decision.
One decision.
One plan.
And then… all in

Backup Plans Ruin All Plans
Because maybe the only way is all in.

There’s something safe but equally unsafe about a backup plan.

When you don’t fully choose something, you actually ARE choosing NOTHING.

It’s basic math. Basic law of attraction.

A partial investment in something by default can only mean a partial investment in any other of the options. Which gives you nothing. It’s an active choice towards nothing.
It feels clever
Like you’re being responsible or protective by holding something in your back pocket just in case.

But what if backup plans are actually self-sabotage in disguise?

What if they’re the quiet signal to the universe that you don’t really believe in your Plan A?
What if they're the energy of doubt dressed up as "being prepared"?

Sometimes, the reason things don’t work out is because we’re still emotionally invested in the escape hatch.

We say we want the dream—but our actions show we don’t trust it.
We say we’re ready for more—but we keep choosing less.

And then we wonder why we feel stuck in between.

Backup plans aren’t just “in case.”
They split your focus. They split your energy.
And nothing blooms halfway.

The truth is—most magic comes from going all in.
The kind of bold belief that has no exit strategy.
The kind that says: I’m either going to make this happen… or I’m going to become the person who does.